Good Girl? Bad Girl?

Sorry for the emo-ness..... hav u ever feel that u're not good enuf? that u've done something so bad that u somehow feel it's unforgivable n u jus wanna be left alone down that path which u know will lead to misery but u jus wanna walk in it coz u know u're not good anymore? i feel that way... like i've done some stuff that i feel it's unforgivable and that i'm ashame of n i jus wanna be left alone to walk down this path of destruction.... i can't explain why i feel this way all i know is i'm in too deep to let it go... i jus want him... i know he's no good for me... i know i can do better but at this moment i jus want him... i know he used me... i know i can never be happy with him... but for this moment i wish he was here with me.... sigh... i know i shouldn't miss him.. but i can't help it.... i do miss him and i miss him badly... oh my... someone pls knock some sense into me!!! sigh....i think i might jus have turned into a bad girl....