When Will it come to past

Throw away my walls and let's see what we got
A broken girl with broken dreams longing for hope
wipe my smile and look into my eyes
the tears that i cry everynight
when will i learn to grow up
To be among my peers and not above them
stop trying to act like someone who doesn't understand
when all i see is a reflection of myself
how will i start to voice out my thoughts
to start acting like a human being who breaks and cries once in a while
has everything that's happened around me turn me into stone?
am i a living porcelin doll that's hallow inside
i try to search myself over and over again
yet i find no heart
not a single beat that tells me i'm alive
what is this that i'm feeling
could it be death in another form
to live yet die inside?
all i want is to breath
to be alive with hopes and dreams again