The reason

Hey you ever stray?? have u ever forgotten the very first reason you do something??

Well... i have...
After 22 years of almost being single (except for one month and a couple of days..) i actually forgotten the main reason i stayed single! ironic isn't it how sometimes we do things so casually till we actually forgot the very reason we did it in the first place and let it slip into a routine or an obligation and not out of will... hehehe but after all this talking with a great friend of mine, i've finally realise and was reminded of the reason i choose to wait for my hubby in the beginning. hehehehe.. now, i know some of you will be thinking after reading this that i'm crazy and so totally not in my right mind, but i tell you i've never been more right in my mind than i have now...
i'm not perfect... and the guy i would dream of being with me will not be perfect either.. BUT
the main reason i stayed single for all these years was so i would be able to wait for him. to guard my heart and not give apart of me away to everyone i liked before he comes. if there is one thing that i'm sure of is that one day when we're together, maybe before we say our vows or after or engagement party or even the morning after our wedding, i will look over by my side and look him the eye and tell him how amazing he is and how i still can't believe that he's with me. my future hubby, i know wat kind of person he is, he is a humble teachable person, someone who is understanable yet will stand firm on what he believes in, he will have a heart for people and a passion to see people grow closer to God, he's Funny, gentle, caring, observant, sensitive to peoples needs and most importantly, a man after God's own heart. how i know this?i just know that God has kept him aside for me... of course like all relationship, i know we'll argue, get angry at each other and disagree on things... but one thing will be certain, and that is he'll always love me and we will always work things out...
now how can you settle for anything less after you know this is who's waiting for you at the end?
i know i can't... and its knowin and believing that God has set aside such a great and amazing guy that makes all others pale in comparison... i am sad, sad that i stray and that i actually forgotten about my hubby and how amazing he is... i'm so sorry hubby... i really am... i will not forget you anymore... wherever you are... and i hope that one day when we're together, you get to read this and know how much i love you... even before i met you, i'm already in love with you!!!