Sometimes the past is hard 2 forget

well.... as i sit here in my room listening to emo chinese songs (dun ask me why i'm listening to it eventhough i dun understand what they are singing).... i've been just thinking these few days about my life... everything in it high school, college, friends, crushes, lover.... all these that is important to me and affect me.... hehehe.... many things have happened in 21 years of my life, friendship being put to the test, high school drama, college drama, innocent confessions of crushes and heartbreaks... all this have made me who i am today... hehehe i can honestly say that i'm no longer the amanda that walked in the threshold of life college a few years ago... so many things that have constantly put me to the test and have forced me to grow up... do i have regreats? i think i do jus tat i can't seem to remember them.... and do i have longing? yea... there are a few things i still wish i had or i still want and am hoping for it.... weather those things are good for me a not... i can honestly answer that i dunno and i dun think so... but those stuff doesn't matter.... what matters is now.... what am i gonna make use of my time now to continue to grow.... as a person... so many failures have taught me to try harder and tells me that there's nothing i can't do if i put my mind to it.... but there's still a long way to go... my race is not over and i know that there will be many more failures and challenges around the bend for me to face and my only hope now is that whatever that i'm about to face... i will be able to come out of it victorously.... so... as i'm about to go grab my dinner.... hm.... i miss u all lots!!! *muck*

mandy ;p!