destress ah destress ah

need to destress... ok ok get a grip.... i can do it!!! i can do it!!!! in a certain point of time... u know u're stress when even in ur dreams u are dreaming of things that is of no factual reason but lots of bull period! heehehehe... we were so stress idreamt about trying to take an lrt with my sister to sunway piramid (dun ask me why) and my other friends dreamt bout getting beat up but the natives here.... hehehehe... signs of stress... not to mention if my books could talk they will be yelling at me for flipping them too much..... two papers are down got 2 more to go one's tmr morning... how am i ever gonna wake up for tmr is a miracle.... but i really dun not wish to retake that subject.... can't believe that ever since i've been here i've never drink more redbull or coffee in my entire life than now.... hehehehe.... i can't wait to go home... really miss everyone back home and want to see them so much... not to mention my baby doggie at home too... heard so much about it from my mum.... really want to see him again..... sigh... still have another year to go.... wish i can shortcut..... sigh.... okla.... dun wan to bored u guys liao... besides.... i hear my books calling me..... time for round two.... *ting*! back into the boxing ring with my books... need to battle with it to understand.... hehehe.... ciao ppl!!!!

I'm So Scared!!!

SIgh... SIGH!!!.... hm.... exam is coming soon and i'm so terrified.... i can't understand what i'm reading.... AHHHHHH!!!!! so need to get a grip on myself!!!! jus really pray that God will help me through....sigh.... these are the times i feel dispare and maybe just maybe i'm not as great as i know i can be... maybe i'm jus NOT good.... sigh.... hope things will be better.... so many things in like hanging...dunno what's gonna happen.... jus waiting....waiting for things that i can't control come into place... whatever happens Lord.... u're in charge...that's nothing i can do now...NOTHING!!! sigh....

evicted!!!

sigh.... life is unfair but what can we do.... 2 weeks b4 my finals n my reapplication for my housing is denied! not that i'm a bad tenant... jus that i didn't socialies enough... sorryla if i have to study... shot me coz i need to graduate and work... like i dun have enuf problems now... need to put on me the resposiblility to find a new place to stay... all b'coz? i dun party with them??? stupid reason to denie ppl of accomodation dun u think?... now have to find another location thats near to uni n my work place.... sigh.... worried bout my safety also now... been complaining liao for about 2 whole days... still not enough i really dun like this kind of stuff especially when it's so near exam.... another headache coming on... need to lay down now.... idiots!!!!! IDIOTS!!!! eeeeeeeeee...........

when times are stress

Flying
Standing at the edge,
I can see the city beneath my feet,
Wondering what it's like to fall into the busy streets,
Letting go of everything I've held close in my life,
And for once...just learn to fly
Would it be painless?
Will my memories flash before my eyes?
How would it feel like dancing vertically in slow motion,
Would it be beautiful from my point of view?
Or will horror and fear prevail?
Taking in an air of estacy as i'm trying to omprehend this,
I can feel my courage soaring now as the need for peace creeps desperately into my soul,
Nothing in the world could prepare me for this,
The beauty of falling into an eternal rest,
Where neither presure nor expctation exist,
No more pain,
No confusion and there it will remain.....
Peace....
Only peace.....

just something i wrote a long while ago to release stress.... poetry can help release stress eventhough it will not happen... hehehehe was trying out a new genre of poetry inspired by you... hehehe....

MY TURN?

hm.... wondering when my turn will be.... to find the guy that u wanna wake up next to everyday... the kind u'll love to hate yet without him... ur heart will break... the kind who will give up he's heart to you and love you like ur the only thing in the world.... the one i'll be with for the rest of my life....but it will all have to wait la.... too busy and tired to keep it at the moment....

4am

How hurtful can love be,
It ends with a few words,
Yet its effect lasts a lifetime,
It's joy only a moment,
But it's memory forever
How i would wish to erase what it has done to me,
To forget it's pleasure,
To be rid of it's pain,
A woman's love knows no bounds,
Yet a mans betrayal will kill her soul,
This is what love can do,
To either give life or take it away
For men cannot live without love,
As fishes without water,
A creature in need of company,
We are a species in need of companionship,
And as i lay here awake at 4,
I should not hurt anymore,
No I should not,
For that part of me,
Is already dead

GRACE!!!!

OK peeps! this is a little update on wat happen in grace ball... cool rite? i was dancing the venice waltz as a presentation... love u all muckx!!!!