HAPPY 22 to me!!!

So on my 22nd burfday... wat did i do?? hehehe i jus sleep the whole day!!! hehehe... really... it was a day full of rest and relaxation and i'm totally loving it!!! love all my friends for all the wishes!!! i really miss u all lots!!! and thank you so much for all my perth friends who surprised me over and over again... life would be so boring here in perth without any of u in my life... thank you!!! and of course... my family!!! love u all so much!!!! i'm so blessed to have u all in my life.... thanks for the great beautiful burfday.... really THANK YOU!!!!

My BurfDay Card from malaysia from my family arrived a few days earlier.. but i love iT!


Even my bro wrote in it!!! missing u all so much!!!


One of our silly poses after 12 midnite... love u all so much!!!!

She insisted on 22 candles on the small cake... it was so CUTE!!!

Amanda's surprise cake for me... it was so small and cute!!!

Amanda's Gift for me!!! I LUV IT!!!

Chirag's Gift!!! SO NICE RIGHT?? i love it!!!

The cake that niken, chirag, wey yiing n cheryl surprise me with... hehehe... niken was hillirious!! it's a Honey Comb mudcake... NICE!

Cell Group surprise me with this beautiful cake!
look so winter wonderland... LOVE IT!!

My Responsibility

For years, as i search for love, i've always felt that it was the guys responsibility to look after the girls heart, to not give false hope that wat they have is forever, however, it's only lately i've realise that it's not only the guys responsibility to guard the girls heart, it's also my own responsiblity to not expect anything and to be ready to accept that wat is goin on now might not last forever, yes guys do play a role, that they should not say things they don't really mean, or dun really know, but it's also my responsibility to not expect anything from them. to not want something to happen, and hope that it'll last forever. though it's definately not something that i personally can do. the not expecting that he is the one i'll spent my whole life with, i should learn to be contented at where we're at and to just let things slowly happen, instead of rushing things coz i know that it might end. guess i really got to learn to jus let the things that are not meant to happen to go. hopefully... i will be able to do it...

What Amanda Leong Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

WHY???

Sigh... been sleeping with my bible beside me... it's not a bad thing but the reason it is beside me leaves me to ponder what's goin on with me.... i pray hard every night now.... things goin through my mind have the capability of driving me insane... not to mention the emtional tug of my heart... that's another issue to deal with... and that's why my bible is beside me.. i'm hoping to find answers... all the answers in my heart that i'm silently questioning... and it's engulfing me.... really want to talk to GOD directly... wonder if he'll answer all my questions or do i have to wait... i hate waiting... been doin that for 22 years..... one really can get tired of waiting... especially if out of 22 years 20 years was under good behavior yet i question my blessing.... n the only thing my heart wants.... he refuse to give it to me.... it's a thorn in my side... then again... i should get used to it by now... it has always been a thorn at my side.. for freaking 22 years... i've waited... do u hear me LORD? can u see this breaking heart that is about to give up hope? won't show me compassion n pity on me? 22 years... have i not been obedient? Pls LORD... jus show me the answer... jus one answer....